When people see the slightest of weakness on you, they target that and use it against you. On the other hand, they also target you when they see that you are strong, thinking that you can probably just deal with it. When you’ve spent your time and dignity building an image of yourself that shows you as being strong as a rock but in reality… on the inside you’re nothing but feebleness and emotions. People think it’s actually okay to pick on someone and tear apart what little self esteem they have just from what they portray them as. They think that they can handle it. They think that they can do all this to them just because they’re “strong.” They pick and choose every last bit and piece until there is nothing left. You begin to fall into this bottomless pit where it seems as though there is no way out of it. You just keep falling, and falling,and falling. There’s only one way out but you feel as though there’s no chance of getting there. So you just keep going deeper and deeper until you’ve reached your limit and say you had enough. You end it.
Then, they go off saying how “they shouldn’t have died,” “they were a beautiful,” “they would have been a use to this world.” Why don’t people say these things when the person is alive. It would’ve changed their minds about their decision. However, others still go along acting as if they didn’t have anything to contribute to what had happened. As if they were completely innocent. As if what that one person did was completely their fault and no one had anything to do with it. Which makes me really think, How absent minded can a person really get? How can you be so blind to what you were saying and doing to a person? How can you not feel the guilt of participating in what you have done to this innocent person? But you know what they say… Ignorance is Bliss.
” If you spend too much time thinking about what you want to do in life, you forget about living the life you’re living right now.”
– John O’ Callaghan
Sometimes you just need to get your nose out of that text book and just take a walk outside and soak up some of that Vitamin D! Personally, I’m the kind of person that is always in the house either doing something very productive, such as studying, or playing mindless games on my parents’ iPad mini. Fascinating, isn’t it? No, I actually regret some of the days that I waste on pointless things like games. I always tell myself that I’m going to change this terrible habit of mine but nothing prevails. However, the thing that motivates me the most is probably blogging about it. It actually helps. I put down all your thoughts and goals in words on this blog, it does assist me in achieving them, no joke. Even right now, it makes me want to just take a stroll in my neighborhood and just think about random things like puppies yawning (SO CUTE).
I also believe that if people just have 10-15 minutes a day just to themselves it would make their day go/end so much better. Just sitting there, eyes shut, and worries gone, almost like meditating without the “OMMMM,” is so relaxing and tension relieving. So, just go outside and live your life, take some risks, and GET INVOLVED. Many people would say not to get involved but hey, it creates memories and maybe even some of the best memories so why not? I would like to advise everyone to live it up!
I am an introvert first of all. And no, it does not mean I’m anti-social, boring, or a loner. These are probably the stereotypical things that come to people’s minds when they think of introvert. But, they’re wrong. There is a thin line between what I think and what i actually say. Introverts like to socialize with others but just in smaller numbers. They prefer to stay at home and read a nice book they’re really interested in rather than go out partying. They like their own privacy. However, there can be a downside to being an introvert at times. It’s hard to talk to people who you want to get to know. It’s difficult to talk in front of people, let alone crowds of people. People say just to get over it but the thing is, you just can’t get over it. It’s just how we are.
It’s actually quite funny how little, most people in life know about you. They only know what I choose to reveal about myself. They just scratched the surface of who I really am. They don’t know the difference between my interest and my obsessions. They don’t know what books and movies I enjoy. They don’t know what I’ve experienced. They just don’t know. And I kind of prefer it that way because if they were to know the things that I keep from everyone, it’ll give them power. The power of judgment. The power to criticize me and the things I’ve done.
I suppose everyone is an extrovert at birth. Where they have no shame and just let their colors show in the earlier stages in their lives. However, the reality that sets them apart from each other is the experiences that happen to them that lead them to evolving into an introvert.
I’ve shared a piece of me and was shot down. The thing is that if you really want to get to know me, you’d have to keep on digging and digging until you get to a deeper side of me. The side where my true self is. And anyone that is willing to make that effort is someone worth keeping, worth standing by. What I’ve learned is that in order to share a piece of me, I have to really trust that person. This is why I keep to myself when I encounter people. This is why it’s harder for me to talk about myself and show who I really am because I have been stabbed in the back so many times before.
In my eyes, I’m more of a listener. I rather stay quiet and just listen and learn. I am more aware of my surroundings because all I do is observe everything. I see the little details in things instead of the main components.
Probably the best thing about introverts is that if you do get to know one and you get them to feel comfortable with you, they can be the absolute funniest and most enjoyable people to be around. Once they feel comfortable with you, it’s like they’re sharing a secret with you and that secret is their personality.